Desa\u0165 hod\u00edn odbilo. Bud\u00edk mu hral Audioslave, no vypol ho hne\u010f po prv\u00fdch t\u00f3noch a znova si \u013eahol. Pretrel si unaven\u00fa tv\u00e1r, pomaly sa posadil a chv\u00ed\u013eu len sedel. Rukami si prehrab\u00e1val vlasy a letmo sa obzeral po izbe. Bola neupratan\u00e1 \u2014 oble\u010denie rozh\u00e1dzan\u00e9 v\u0161ade naokolo \u2014 no gitary, tie boli starostlivo odlo\u017een\u00e9. Utrieden\u00e9, vyle\u0161ten\u00e9. Jedin\u00e9, na \u010do sa dok\u00e1zal pozrie\u0165 s tichou rados\u0165ou.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Vstal. \u0160krabal sa po hlave, z\u00edval do pr\u00e1zdneho bytu a pre\u0161iel do kuchyne. Na chv\u00ed\u013eu sa zah\u013eadel na no\u017ee vo stojane. \u00dasta sa mu skrivili v \u010dudnom, kr\u00e1tkom \u00fa\u0161k\u013eabku. Potom len otvoril chladni\u010dku, vytiahol mlieko a spravil si cere\u00e1lie. Sadol si k stolu, vzal do ruky telef\u00f3n. \u017diadne spr\u00e1vy \u2014 ani od rodiny, ani od kamar\u00e1tov. Na Messengeri nap\u00edsal Jakubovi:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eEj, dnes ve\u010der pivko po pr\u00e1ci?\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Odoslal, vypol mobil a jedol. Pozeral pritom von z okna. Sne\u017eilo hustej\u0161ie ne\u017e zvy\u010dajne, cel\u00fd svet p\u00f4sobil akosi vzdialen\u00fd. Misku polo\u017eil do drezu a vr\u00e1til sa do izby. Vzal gitaru a za\u010dal hra\u0165. Hurt od Nine Inch Nails, potom Smells Like Teen Spirit. Pri hran\u00ed c\u00edtil pokoj. Kr\u00e1tku chv\u00ed\u013eu harm\u00f3nie. T\u00e1 v\u0161ak zmizla hne\u010f, ako dohral.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pozrel na hodiny \u2014 bolo na\u010dase chysta\u0165 sa do pr\u00e1ce. Vzal trojd\u0148ov\u00fd burger, vodu, v\u0161etko hodil do ruksaku a obliekol si \u010dierny kab\u00e1t. Pri zrkadle si prehodil \u0161\u00e1l okolo krku a zad\u00edval sa na seba. \u00dasta sklesnut\u00e9, o\u010di pr\u00e1zdne. V\u00fdraz, akoby tam ani nebol. Predstavil si, ak\u00e9 ve\u013ek\u00e9 \u010drepiny by zo zrkadla zostali, keby po \u0148om tresol\u2026 a \u010do v\u0161etko by vedeli urobi\u0165.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Skrivili sa mu \u00fasta, nasadil si batoh a vyrazil k autobusu. Na zast\u00e1vku to mal desa\u0165 min\u00fat. Nepo\u010d\u00faval hudbu \u2014 nechal mesto, nech mu samo hr\u00e1. Rieka ved\u013ea chodn\u00edka tiekla r\u00fdchlo; predstavil si silu pr\u00fadu, ktor\u00fd v sebe nesie v\u0161etko, \u010do do\u0148 spadne. Zo stromov po k\u00faskoch padal sneh. Ob\u010das okolo neho pre\u0161la star\u0161ia \u017eena a nepr\u00edjemne sa na neho zad\u00edvala, no ani to s n\u00edm nehlo.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ke\u010f dorazil na zast\u00e1vku, autobus pri\u0161iel takmer okam\u017eite. Nast\u00fapil a sadol si na prv\u00e9 sedadlo pri okne. Tentokr\u00e1t si nasadil sl\u00fachadl\u00e1 a pustil melancholick\u00fa hudbu. Okolie ubiehalo. Aut\u00e1, stromy, lesy, hory. Cez odraz v skle sledoval ostatn\u00fdch cestuj\u00facich \u2014 v\u0161etci s nepr\u00edtomn\u00fdm poh\u013eadom, ako keby ich niekto nechal be\u017ea\u0165 na pozad\u00ed. Len vodi\u010d p\u00f4sobil \u017eiv\u0161ie, jemne pohupoval hlavou do starej klasiky, ktor\u00e1 \u0161umela z r\u00e1dia.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Cesta ubiehala pomaly. A de\u0148 mal ubieha\u0165 e\u0161te pomal\u0161ie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
V pr\u00e1ci sa prezliekol do monteriek, pipol pr\u00edchod a vo\u0161iel na halu. Kolegovia sa u\u017e rozpr\u00e1vali, niektor\u00ed sa smiali \u2014 nikto v\u0161ak s n\u00edm. Pripravil si vodu a \u010dakal na ofici\u00e1lny za\u010diatok smeny. Zvonenie ohl\u00e1silo \u0161tart. Pr\u00e1ca bola st\u00e1le rovnak\u00e1. Jeden kus mohol v\u00e1\u017ei\u0165 aj p\u00e4\u0165 k\u00edl a jeho rukami ich denne pre\u0161li stovky. Vzal kus, polo\u017eil na stojan, posunul ho do stroja. Znova. A znova. A znova.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Popritom mu v hlave be\u017eali vlastn\u00e9 rytmy \u2014 prem\u00fd\u0161\u013eal nad riffmi, ktor\u00e9 doma vysk\u00fa\u0161a. Do toho star\u00e9 krivdy, ktor\u00e9 sa mu vracali v nepr\u00edjemnom opakuj\u00facom sa pulze. Ak mu mozog nepripom\u00ednal chyby, sem-tam sa ozvala spomienka na nie\u010do pekn\u00e9. Ako na z\u00e1kladnej \u0161kole hr\u00e1val svoje prv\u00e9 t\u00f3ny. Pozit\u00edva v\u0161ak zaka\u017ed\u00fdm udusili tie negat\u00edvne.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Za chrbtom po\u010dul kolegov:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eHej, u\u017e si si vsadil na z\u00e1pas?\u201c
\u201eNem\u00e1 to cenu, na\u0161i s\u00fa ako postihnut\u00ed. A druh\u00fd t\u00edm nem\u00e1 ve\u013ek\u00fd kurz.\u201c
\u201eKe\u010f som hr\u00e1val hokej, cvi\u010dili sme ako bl\u00e1zni. Na\u0161i by mali robi\u0165 to ist\u00e9.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Prest\u00e1vka pri\u0161la s nepr\u00edjemn\u00fdm, prask\u013eav\u00fdm zvukom z reproduktorov. Vo\u0161iel do kab\u00edny, otvoril burger a v jeho strede uvidel, \u017ee raj\u010dina u\u017e chytila plese\u0148. Odl\u00fapol ju a zvy\u0161ok bez probl\u00e9mov zjedol. Robotn\u00edci sa okolo smiali, dohadovali. On sedel s\u00e1m. Pozrel si telef\u00f3n, op\u00e4\u0165 nap\u00edsal Jakubovi. Prech\u00e1dzal Instagram. A potom znova ten tvrd\u00fd zvuk. Vstal a vr\u00e1til sa na halu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Presunuli ho k ru\u010dn\u00e9mu zo\u0161krab\u00e1vaniu hrdze. Dali mu otupen\u00fd piln\u00edk.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eHej, chce\u0161 radu do \u017eivota?\u201c ozval sa kolega.
On sa len oto\u010dil.
\u201eNau\u010d sa robi\u0165 veci poriadne. U\u0161etr\u00ed\u0161 pr\u00e1cu sebe aj tomu, kto ti ju dal.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Len zo seba vydal nie\u010do medzi vzdychom a s\u00fahlasom a pokra\u010doval v pr\u00e1ci.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
O hodinu pri\u0161iel kolega znova.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eHej, rob to r\u00fdchlej\u0161ie. Nem\u00e1me na to cel\u00fd de\u0148.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n
K\u00fdvol hlavou, ale nezastavil sa. Ke\u010f kone\u010dne odzvonilo koniec smeny, vybral sa ku skrinke a prezliekol sa. V pozad\u00ed po\u010dul kolegu:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eVie\u0161, ke\u010f som hr\u00e1val hokej, d\u00e1vali sme tak\u00e9 g\u00f3ly, \u017ee by si na\u0161i sadli na ri\u0165.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Cesta sp\u00e4\u0165 domov bola tich\u00e1. Hudba v u\u0161iach, tma za oknami autobusu. Po\u010d\u00faval podcast, potom zas hudbu.
Na svojej zast\u00e1vke vyst\u00fapil, no ne\u0161iel hne\u010f domov. Zabo\u010dil do uli\u010dky k jedin\u00e9mu otvoren\u00e9mu obchodu. K\u00fapil si pivo a a\u017e potom zamieril k bytu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pred vchodom si sadol, vytiahol telef\u00f3n a nap\u00edsal Jakubovi:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eKedy pr\u00edde\u0161?\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Odoslal. O\u010di sa mu roz\u017eiarili, ke\u010f sa uk\u00e1zalo, \u017ee spr\u00e1va bola pre\u010d\u00edtan\u00e1.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Trvalo to len chv\u00ed\u013eu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eTu Jakubova sestra. Presta\u0148 p\u00edsa\u0165 na toto \u010d\u00edslo. Jakub je u\u017e pol roka m\u0155tvy. Daj n\u00e1m, pros\u00edm, pokoj.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A potom \u2014 blok.
Koniec.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pozrel si posledn\u00fa konverz\u00e1ciu spred pol roka.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eVe\u010der pivko?\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Utrel si oko chrbtom ruky, schoval telef\u00f3n a vypil cel\u00e9 pivo na jeden z\u00e1\u0165ah.
Zdvihol poh\u013ead k bytovke. Predstavil si t\u00fa v\u00fd\u0161ku.
Vzal druh\u00e9 pivo a vo\u0161iel dnu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Doma si pustil seri\u00e1l. Dopil aj druh\u00e9 pivo. \u013dahol si do postele.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
V mysli mal jedin\u00fa my\u0161lienku: Zajtra za\u010dne v\u0161etko odznova. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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